Tuesday, March 8, 2011

True Nature Calls

I’m all about growing and getting better at being human.  Let me clarify: not becoming a better human but getting better at being human.  Because this shit’s hard.  And I think there is an art to it.

I do a lot – I meditate, I’m in therapy, I read spiritual books, I am consciously trying to break patterns and habits that do not serve me or the world.  It’s a full time job.  And some days I just feel like screaming:

"DAMMIT I AM SO SICK OF GROWING AND CHANGING AND EVOLVING AND EXPANDING AND TRANSFORMING AND TRANSCENDING! CAN’T I JUST STAY STUCK?"

So I let myself be stuck and miserable and feel sorry for myself.  And I really let it wash over me.  I’m a method actress, you know.  I get in to it.  I'm that good.  And after about a day of honoring how I feel - which is so important - I think:

"Wow.  This sucks.  This is actually a lot harder than doing it the other way."

So then I go back to growing and changing and evolving and expanding and transforming and transcending.  Which actually feels easier on some level.  Maybe because the Universe is always growing and changing and evolving and expanding and transforming and transcending.  So it must be that when I am, too, I'm in sync.  I am aligned.  I am honoring my true nature.


We're all prone to bad days.  And we're all meant to thrive. 

6 comments:

  1. Love this blog! Reasons led by the universe to keep doing our work even on those days that we want to SCREAM and throw in the towel! Yay!

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  2. Maybe we wouldn't feel like 'screaming' as hard if we gripped less tightly on the reigns of GROWTH. I too feel like more relaxation and trust is in order... Thanks for sharing both sides of your experience.

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  3. Great piece! We've all gone through those days where screaming seems like the best option. But you remind us what path to take instead, including screaming :) Keep it coming.

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  4. What is it that Richard Bach said : "Constantly changing but always perfect"?
    Something like that.

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  5. Great post!

    It's nice to know that we're not alone in having off days.

    There are times where I try to blame it on stuff, hormones, people, whatever - but deep down I know that it's all just me. I am my worth habit.

    Collecting myself back together to going back to growing and changing and evolving is me breaking out of "my old habits" and becoming my new "me" - My True Nature.

    Thanks Sarah for sharing.

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  6. lady, lady, lady - I read this when it first came out, but then my Internet crashed, so I couldn't tell you how much I loved this - I was soooo moved!!! Thanks for doing the hard work, so I have someone to look up to. xoxoo

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